Friday---The kids have been out of school for teacher conferences...Fun times if you ask any mom! I had arranged play dates for one of my kids and planned to take the other one shopping for a new washer and dryer (something I'd been planning and studying for months). As I piled the kids into the beloved minivan and prepared for the day ahead I was strangely excited. Shopping always gives me a certain thrill, especially as a mommy doing never ending loads of stinky clothes. We also had a dinner party to attend to that night. I had plenty of things to do before but it was going to be a great day....boy was I wrong.
We left the store with a new "top of the line" washer dryer that was supposed to make my life great, right? Well, at least my laundry duties great. Headed home and called, emailed, texted my husband...no response. Strange, Well maybe he's in the middle of a call at work.
Came home and promptly sat my daughter at the table to do crafts while I took five to check Facebook, because yeah I am a great mom. My husband came through the door, earlier than usual, but I just attributed to our impending dinner party to attend to.
"We need to talk right now"
Shit. Well ok. What's up.
"I need to talk to you in private"
Shit. Well ok but stop it you are scaring me!
"You should be scared" "
Shit. I think I just crapped my pants.
"You are going to want to divorce me"
Shit...Shit... Shit... Now I am terrified.
"I just lost my job, for something that was completely my fault"
Here I Am thinking, well I am sure we can fix it right. It can't be THAT bad.
"For the past year or so I have been watching porn, on my work computer, at work!!!!"
Did I mention my previously crapped pants? They just got crapped on again...
What??? How??? Why???
Did you cheat???----Is that not considered cheating??
What are we going to do???
Our kids, our precious kids, innocent and kind, had their world just collapsed like mine??
Funny, how my initial response which is supposed to be the most honest right....I collapsed to the floor and started bawling. And shaking, and felt like the world was closing in on me. And I couldn't breathe. And please, please, someone needs to wake me up from this. I need to wake up!!!
No such luck, this shit is not a dream.
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